Chapter 24

Chapter 24

February 16, 2009

Went to a different country, had a new nephew, experienced some things that could probably be the most extreme experience I could ever imagine myself in, got involved in a relationship for the very first time and months later, got married. So what’s new to me you ask? Phew… all in one year huh!

If you’re going to ask me if I’m happy, I’d say yes. If I’m sad? Partly yes. If I regret anything that I’ve done these past months, NO.

Here I am beside the man I married writing down thoughts that had been webbing in my mind for the past few days as I simultaneous think of gifts, money, downloads, sex and books. There he was bugging me whole day with intentions to copulate and give him a child as swift as a blink of the eye if possible but here he is now, snuggled like a baby, cradling his stomach ache.

Not once did I ask myself if I love this man enough to marry him. Aside from thoughts of my age and fears, I find no other reason not to. Seven months relationship – enough to make people raise eyebrows especially for people who pre-judged me as the non-marrying type. Well, what can I say… aside from extruding the non-marrying type attitude, I know myself as a person with humongous mood swings, unpredictable tendencies and a slave to signs and fate as well.

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