1000 words

February 19, 2009

I know that you’re hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn’t say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You’ll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

“Save your tears cause I’ll come back”
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I’d cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I’m not afraid to say what’s in my heart

‘Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They’ll fly to you
Even though I can’t see I know they’re reaching you
Suspended on silver wings

Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They’ll hold you forever

Oh a thousand words(a thousand words)
Have never been spoken(oh yeah)
They’ll fly to you
They’ll carry you home(carry you home)and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings(on silver wings!)

And a thousand words (oh)
Call out through the ages(call through the ages!)
They’ll cradle you(oh yeah)
Turning all of the lonely years to only days(only days)
They’ll hold you forever
Oh a thousand words

I thought it wouldn’t hurt that much but it does… I keep telling others that it was just a short time, how much can it affect me? But…

Sleeping beside each other, hugging until our limbs numbs; passionate goodnight kisses, sweet morning kisses; looking at each others eyes, studying each others facial features when one thinks the other doesn’t realize; touches that may seem nothing but means thousands of words for each other… it was just a month and yet it felt like a lifetime… now that I’m all by myself again, I feel darn incomplete. And lonely.

I miss my husband. I want to be with my husband – the man I love.