Taeyeon’s diary.

(0-0-26):January 10th, 2009.

It’s been already 9months since I became a DJ.

(0-0-35):I think I’ve been a celebrity for a year and a half?

Also, our SNSD’s mini album began today.

(0-0-44):As time passes by, I wonder if I’m changing or not.

(0-0-50):And I wonder if I’m developing as a better person or not.

I’ve been thinking a lot about these things.

(0-0-57):I didn’t expect some things to be this difficult and complicated

…I thought about why I was so stressed about those things.

(0-1-10):However, the answer was simple.

Because I like what I’m doing.

(0-1-16):Because I want to do it.

Unfortunately, there can be troubles when I’m happy.

(0-1-25):This happens in corporate life and when you’re with new people…

(0-1-30):I know that these are part of the social life but…

(0-1-35):I have no idea what I should do…

(0-1-38):Even adults have difficult time dealing with the social life.

(0-1-45):Social life is a big burden for a twenty year old, me.

(0-1-51):It’s not like we are machines, we are people.

I don’t understand why people don’t have flexibility and why they are so cold to each other.

(0-2-0):Moreover, they say they are the best and boasts…

I also don’t understand how there are so many misunderstandings between people.

(0-2-9):Sigh..it seems my diary became dirty.

(0-2-15):I don’t mind speculations but I hope people don’t jump into conclusions.

(0-2-19):Please…come on! Please!

I hope I’m more honest.

(0-2-27):Finally, today, I have lost an important person, whom I love.
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credits: translation by cathode@soshified.com/forums

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Fangirling aside, TaeYeon touched the very depths of that part in me that had been in chaotic mode for days now. Why am I being so stressed out of all these things I’m concerned with at the moment? Tae mouthed the answer for me; For that part of me that had been causing so much trouble where there shouldn’t have been in the first place. I’m tired. I’m stressed. I want to be angry but even that I can’t let myself to do. Social life can but such a pain in the butt at times but because we hold some things with so much importance, we have no choice but to try to be strong even if it seems like you’re the only one left standing, in your corner.